Daniel Perez Jr

Danny, We hurt so much. I never thought this kind of pain ever existed. I cannot understand why you had to go. We need you. There's so many questions but no answers. I just pray to God to give strength to keep on going for the next day. That following day comes and its worst. The girls want answers and so do I. But I pray again and that gives strengh for a couple of days. I want to be strong for the girls. Instead I'm the weak. Don't know what to do or say anymore.  I can't think like I used to before. I feel like I 'm already dead. I feel like I.m out of my head. I think I need help. I need to be ready for you. (Feb 4) I want to look at them straight in the eye and ask them WHY? who do they think they are? Like I said too many questions and I don't get answers. Hurts too much. Love you very much. still watch the window to see if you are coming home. Wishing it was you standing in the front door. Just coming in from Laredo. You asking me what's for lunch? I miss you mi hijo so much.

For Daniel Perez Jr who has fallen victim to hatred and inhumanity, for those loved ones who are left behind to mourn, for the souls of those whose hearts are cold, Lord, hear our prayer.

Almighty God, you have given all peoples one common origin, and your will is to gather them as one family in yourself. Fill the hearts of all with the fire of your love and the desire to ensure justice for Daniel Perez Jr. By sharing the good things you give us, may we secure justice and equality for every human being, and a human society built on love and peace, through Jesus Christ Our Lord. Amen.

O LORD, here my plea for justice. Listen to my cry for help. Pay attention to my prayer, for it comes from an honest heart. Amen.

Remember when we used to talk on the phone twice a day or sometimes more, Dad? I do and I hope I never ever forget. We could talk on the phone ALL NIGHT untill you would tell me "Its late". I miss that Dad.... and I miss you. I love you...

I will NEVER forget the memories, the phone calls, and you. I hope you remember like the way i do.

Love,

Abigail

 

 

 

WATCH OVER ME Daddy.

Here's wishing the best MERRY CHRISTMAS ever . You won't be with us here, but in our heart, always.   Wish I could talk to you. Hear your voice for one last time. Wish I could feel your hugs and kisses for one last time. Oh! Danny if you only knew how much we hurt. But I know you are happy and peaceful. I know you are together with Gods Angels and with the best friends ever. Look for Grandpa and Grandma. I'm sure they are glad to have you with them. Remember the game Grandma Felipa would play with you after school. She would hide a candy bar everyday somewhere around the house and you would have to find it. You would look for it in the kitchen drawers. You would find it and call me at work and tell me where she had hidden it. You would say "I found it"  "I found it". Those are the memories I cherish everyday.

 We were at the "Ranchito" yesterday. Mom was remembering when you all used to hide and play all over the ranch. You would play ball and run back and forth, all the way to back, till you would reach the back fench. then play races coming back. Arturito went all the way to back yesterday, just to remember where you all would hide and run back. I didn't have the courage to go all the way back. I just waited for him to get back. He wants to come to our ranch so he can see some pictures of us.

Danny, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU very much. Always watch over us and guide us. Be with us day and night. Watch over Abby and Alexa. Becky still comes and goes to Laredo everyday, Watch over her till she gets home to Alexa. Guide Kiti and Rene. Watch over Dora and her family. Stay with us mi hijo. Can't wait to be with you and join you in heaven.

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!!

This Feels Like I have ankle (ball)chains around my ankles like if im in a horrible world when i dont think of you. When I do think of you, look at your pictures or go through my scrapbook i break down. Sometimes I  dont even move when i think of you i just dont know why but i just do.

I LOVE YOU!!

 

We will always remember the good times we, as a family had together. You will always be in hearts. We miss you and hope you can guide us to the serenity you are now having. We will always be there for your girls. Protect us as you always did when you were with us. Be with us wherever to go. I miss you so much, my son. You will NEVER be forgotten. I can only wait for us to be together. Wishing you were with us during the holidays. They are not here yet, but, I wish they were already gone. Don't know how we'll be without you. Wishing you happiest B-Day party with our Lord. Hope you celebrate the 25th like you never have before. Look down on us and protect us. I miss you so much. I Love you, my son.

My Dearest Abigail,

I understand what you are feeling My Love and it is reasonable why you feel such agony, but please don't ever think you are alone. You are a very beautiful and intelligent young lady and I know that Daddy will be your strength, courage, hope, faith, and love in all things  in your life. I pray to the Lord to give you and your sister peace of mind to accept this and cope with this the best way you can. It breaks my heart to hear such expressions of hurt and pain coming from you. Remember WHEN YOU ARE TIRED OF LOOKING BACK AND SCARED TO LOOK FORWARD, YOU CAN LOOK BESIDE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU. Have peace knowing you were a great daughter to your father and always showered him with a lot of love. He took great pride in you and your sister. With time I know God will coat your heart and mind with the serenity you seek. I understand that the holidays will be hard for you, but remember we will always be here to help you get through this.  When you feel alone pray to your Guardian Angel (Daddy) and he will guide you. I pray that you and your sister embrace the memory of your father and allow him to live through your hearts. I love you girls very much...

Rebecca

Dad,

 Why you of all people?

Many people are with their family, with their mothers, their fathers. And I feel like I have noboby to lean on, when i have everybody here with me. Four more days 'till Christmas and this is the worst of all Christmases for me, it will always be. This pain will go on forever, it will never go away ,ever, like people think or say it does. I have noticed that it gets worse and worse rather than healing and healing. All I want for Christmas is you, beside me, to hug and hold me. Wouldnt that be a miracle? It would be. I can go on and on draining my feelings on this website, but what for if i can talk to you like if we were having a regular conversation like we used to, like we would? I love and miss you so much. Words, sayings, qoutes help, but not like I thought they would. Right now nothing really helps at all, just my family. I used to tihnk someone would die, people would cry for a while and then poof the pain would disappear. I was so wrong, totally wrong, horribly wrong! What to say next huh?

I love you,

Abigail

It's been so hard. These days are so long and sad. I miss you and Love you very much. I see Abby & Alexa and wonder how they go on. I know you tried, till the end,  to see Abby, but couldn't, for whatever reason. She misses you so. She understands a little bit, but the baby dosen't. I just thing this is a dream. I'm still waiting for you to walk in and tell me what I did wrong this time. Or just joking around telling me what you have do today.  You are the world to me, Danny. You were my reason to get up in the mornings. Now, I just wake up confused or just asking  WHY!!! WHY!!! WHY!!!   Only through prayers do I get peace. Asking God to give strenth to keep on, at least for one more day. Just one more day, God. Help me and my family, and most of all ,my two beautiful little girls. Keep them safe and guard them day and night. Watch over them Danny. They need you the most.

Abby one thing we know for sure and that is that love will never die and you will always have your Father's love for he is with Jesus and Jesus is with you...and therefore you know he is present with you.

 

Look for him in the beauty of a day, the things he taught you, the love he had and has for you and see his smile, hear his laughter and tell him you love him as he still loves you.

 

Get him a Christmas present by sharing your beautiful smile with someone that does not have one or sharing a gift with someone that would otherwise not get a gift.

 

Tell him to give Mama, Mikayla, Clarissa, Olga and my dad a big hug and hello from me too.

 

Remember he not just your daddy... he is also your neighbor who is lives in your heart ... like the Aunt Lila says... hey neighbor.

 

Love you much.

 

Aunt Elvia

Those we love don't go away,

they walk besides us every day,

unseen, unheard, but always near,

still Loved, still missed and very dear.

My dear son! I miss you so much

it keeps hurting, I can't stop crying

My eyes always search for you in the sky

Heart longs for finding you in  heaven

 

My dear son! I love you so much

I feel so empty without you

I am scared of my future without you

Heart longs for being around you for my safety

 

My dear son! You are my angel

I still feel that you are caring for me from above

I tell my broken heart that you are still watching me

Heart longs for your care even from heaven

 

My dear son! You are my protector

I remember you when I feel lonely

I talk to you when I break into pieces

Heart longs for your support even from heaven

 

My dear son! I was thinking I gave you life

The reality is that you gave me life

Without you and your presence, I can't exist

Heart longs for your company in my heart until I exsist

Please be there in my heart

 

I Love You Son!

For Daniel Perez Jr who has fallen victim to hatred and inhumanity, for those loved ones who are left behind to mourn, for the souls of those whose hearts are cold, Lord, hear our prayer.

Almighty God, you have given all peoples one common origin, and your will is to gather them as one family in yourself. Fill the hearts of all with the fire of your love and the desire to ensure justice for Daniel Perez Jr. By sharing the good things you give us, may we secure justice and equality for every human being, and a human society built on love and peace, through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

O LORD, hear my plea for justice. Listen to my cry for help. Pay attention to my prayer, for it comes from an honest heart. Amen

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"YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER KNOWS ALL THAT YOU NEED.
 SEEK FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD AND HIS JUSTICE,
 ALL THESE THINGS WILL BE GIVEN YOU BESIDES."

 

Rebecca

Each and every day I think of you.
From the sound of your voice to the sparkle in your eyes.
You always had a way with words.
To me you knew everything,
until one fateful day.
That day I saw you on the coffin,
without life was a life changing sight.
I cried my eyes out to ease my pain.
The day I saw you dead will be the day I will never forget.
the day will scar me until it is my time to join you.
The voice that once spoke is now silenced.
The cute smile that lit up will never be seen,
but only in my memory.
I have always loved you so much and I always will

I can never lose one whom I have loved unto the end; one to whom my soul cleaves so firmly that it can never be separated does not go away but only goes before...........

When someone we love passes away,
We ache, but we go on;
Our dear departed would want us to heal,
After they are gone.

 

 

Grief is a normal way to mend
The anguish and pain in our hearts;
We need time to remember and time to mourn,
Before the recovery starts.

 

 

Let's draw together to recuperate,
As we go through this period of sorrow;
Let's help each other, with tender care
To find a brighter tomorrow.

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Daniel prayed this prayer everyday.. His faith was truly with God as he found comfort in the power of prayer. He prayed to many saints, The Virgin Mary, Our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, and especially to El Nino de Atocha. I never knew the story behind this miraculous Holy Child but I'll never forget the day Danny (in tears) told it to me. He encouraged me to seek comfort in this prayer. He explained to me that he felt a deep connection with this Holy Child and the Lord. He always wore a pink and white scapular of El Nino de Atocha as a way of keeping him close to his heart. Now, I read this prayer everyday...

Prayer to the Infant of Atocha

You are the powerful Saviour of all
people, protector of the invalid and
almighty doctor of the infirm.
Holy Infant, we honor you
and pray to you.

Here say three Our Fathers, Hail Marys,
and Glory be to God.

To remember this day I pray to you
to answer my requests. Holy Infant
of Atocha I ask you with all my
heart to help me. Please be with me in
thought and spirit when I find my
peace and that you will be with me in
the Heavens of Bethlehem.
Amen.

Prayer to Our Redeemer

Jesus, may all that is you flow into me.
May your body and blood be my food
and drink.
May your passion and death be my
strength and life.
Jesus, with you by my side enough has
been given.
May the shelter I seek be the shadow of
your cross.
Let me not run from the love which you
offer, but hold me safe
from the forces of evil.
On each day of my dying shed your light
and your love.
Keep calling to me until that day
comes, when, with your saints,
I may praise you for ever. Amen.

O my God, I firmly believe that you are one God in three divine Persons, Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I believe that your divine Son became flesh, died for our sins, and that he will come to judge the living and the dead. I believe these and all the truths that the Holy Catholic Church teaches because you have revealed them, Who can neither deceive nor be deceived. Amen

I love and miss you Daddy, please watch over me and Alexa. We miss you much I cry for you every day and night.

            

 

O Miraculous Infant of Atocha!

Cast Thy merciful look upon my troubled heart, so inclined to pity. Be softened by my prayer, and grant me these favors which I ardently implore of Thee.

Take from me all affliction and despair, all trials and misfortunes with which I am laden. For Thy Sacred Infancy’s sake, send me now the consolation and aid and grace that I may praise Thee with the Father and Holy Ghost, forever and ever.Amen

O Divine Child of Atocha, hear my prayer and grant my petition.

Lord our God, You are always faithful and quick to show mercy. Daniel Jr was suddenly taken from us. Come swiftly to his aid, have mercy on him, and comfort his family and friends by the power and protection of the cross. We ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen

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Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.

Lord help me
to remember
that nothing
is going to happen
to me today
that You and I
together can't handle.

Amen.

Lord our God, You are always faithful and quick to show mercy. Daniel was violently taken from us.
Come swiftly to his aid, Have mercy on him, and Comfort his family and friends by the power and protection of the cross.
We ask this through Christ our Lord.
Amen.

Praying for you, Daniel....

Rebecca

Angel of God,
my guardian dear,
To whom God's love
commits me here,
Ever this day,
be at my side,
To light and guard,
Rule and guide.

Amen.